Red, White, and Blue

Just found out my sister (my real dichie) got accepted in the U.S. Navy, and she didn't just pass the exam - she aced it. She was the 9th highest for those who took the Navy exam, and the 15th overall (all the applicants for all the forces - Navy, Army, Air Force - had to take the exam at the same time, from what I know). Looks like it's really His plan for her to be there - we actually teased her that she will be used as a nuclear warhead in battle, as she can be a lethal weapon at times (believe me, I know from experience :p).

Anyhow, her being accepted just means one step closer for me migrating to the U.S. of A. - a country that is just not my favorite (to find out the reason, message me. I certainly won't go and blab it all out to have myself shot by them!) A part of me is actually happy with that - a new life, a new beginning, and letting go of a lot of stuff and starting anew. A huge chunk of me is actually pretty ecstatic, considering that my health will have a better chance of improving rather than staying here (yes, I'm sick again. My throat feels like sandpaper went by it a hundred times). However, there's also this part of me that's a bit reluctant to take that step and go for a huge change in my life, because what may happen is just so unpredictable. Almost certainly, I won't be able to continue on with law school (if we really do migrate, it would probably be 2-3 years from now) because of the age thing again. They might ask me to take another degree again, for that matter. While I will be with some of the people I love most in the world, I would not have the people I love spending time with - physically, at least. If we leave, I don't even know if I'm coming back here again. For all my "save the country" talks, a part of me would actually be relieved leaving it; I'm not a hypocrite, and neither am I a nationalist, as I said before. Don't get me wrong: I still maintain that stand, to do our bit to save the Philippines, but I'm not saying to go and wield the Philippine flag whenever and wherever you can.

It's funny. I go about here talking as though our migrating is a sure thing already, when it's not. Whatever His Will for me, however, I would accept it, in all aspects of my life.